By Lorry Myers
I started last week frustrated and discouraged. There are jars I can’t open, household items I can’t find, and so many things I don’t know how to do. I have a tire that is flat and a sink that is draining slow. There is a noise in my bathroom fan and in my furnace and in my refrigerator.
Maybe I’m just hearing things.
I don’t know how to fill my washer fluid. I don’t know the rules about trash or even the day I need to have it out. I don’t know how to start a mower, or turn on the grill, or mix the secret formula of gas and oil that it takes to run my husband’s new leaf blower.
Apparently, I don’t know anything.
Since my husband’s passing, each day brings a new challenge for me and I feel foolish and pampered and almost embarrassed that I’ve never pumped my own gas. My car license came due and so did my insurance, and it took me a ridiculous amount of time to find the dryer vent and clean it out.
I have a lot to learn.
When someone dies, there is so much paperwork that needs to be completed and copied and faxed and downloaded. There are phone calls to make and that means much of your time is spent on hold, or waiting for a website to update or a form to arrive in the mail. Re-titling, re-organizing, re-arranging fills my days and still I am stuck on hold.
Moving forward is hard.
To distract myself, I turned on the TV to watch our old President leave and our new President take the oath of office. The recent protests and acts of disrespect in the seat of our government disheartened me and further added to the frustrations I’ve been feeling. It seems like we’ve divided ourselves according to our politics and seem to have forgotten that our country is struggling and many have lost so much.
So very much.
For the complete column, please see this week’s edition of the Centralia Fireside Guard.